prayers and visions

Agent B prayed for rain as we thanked the Lover for supper and before we had were done eating a luscious rain was falling. We thanked the Lover again. All this means a lot to a child. We were reading a new book to AO#1 in which a boy was given several dinosaurs as pets. AO#1 wanted to have a baby dinosaur like in the story and proceeded to ask the CEO for one. I told him he couldn't have a baby dinosaur, that they don't live anymore, but he prayed all the louder. So, I started praying right along with him. As he said "Lord, PLEASE give me a baby dinosaur", I prayed "Lord, PLEASE don't give us a baby dinosaur". We tried to outshout and pray each other until it all ended in laughter. Since AO#1 can't type, I have one up on him- "please CEO, no dinosaurs, just one healthy daughter come Jan. please."

It has been a bit nerve racking since I was with Mbamie when she lost her baby, and my sister has lost a child and I've heard of dozens of others. I try not to get fearful, but this baby does not kick much or real strong and I'm so busy sometimes that I often wonder if she's kicked that day or enough, or how she is... The other day I was anxious about it and not at peace and impatient with my family, so I finally said to them "come pray over my belly, so that the baby will be ok and that I will have peace about her". No sooner had they stopped praying, the baby was giving me some good kicks and the Holy Spirit was telling me to just chill and lay my burdens on his lap. Why do we live with fears instead of just sharing them from the get go? I hope I learned my lesson. Sometimes it's hard to ask for help.

Mbamie is doing much better. She still has some physical pain, but all the symptoms are getting less severe. Her emotions are up and down, as can be expected. But the smile is creeping back into her voice. Thank you CEO.

Meshell and I have been seeing each other a lot more. I take the kids to library reading time and pick her up on the way. Being a friend to her has it's times of frustration. Taking her somewhere is inevitably a way more complex thing than it seems at first, but the library is not so hard and she really enjoys getting materials for her, her son and her mom. Reading can open up so many worlds, so I'm excited for her too.

AO#1 has been drawing close to the Lover in many ways, so that has been exciting. He has told me that the Lover has told him He loves him, that he's precious and cute. This morning in the dark, as we sought out the Father, AO#1 kept exclaiming that he saw fruit on the tree in the front yard. The tree has been a lesson for us in many ways. When we moved here, a dying mesquite loomed large in the same place. It didn't provide shade, except from the massive trunk and when it started to drop branches over the driveway and sidewalk, we new it was time to cut it down. We have planted no less than 10 trees in our yard (no it's not that big, but the trees all died except a peach tree, that gave us delicious fruit for the first time this year). Then one day a tree came up all on it's own. It grew faster and stronger than the "fast growing shade tree" we planted 10 feet from it (and died a couple of years later). It is a fruitless mulberry tree, but AO#1 "saw" it with fruit on it. The amazing thing is that Agent B has been praying for fruit this entire year since Jan. I think this is the most exciting part by far of parenting- to see the Spirit speaking through or to our children and learning from them is truly amazing.